The State of Things

I feel like I’ve gotten to a point in my career where I have to trust people that I don’t know with this thing that means everything to me.  I’ve been called gullible and too trusting, but I don’t think that success is going to come from being closed minded and guarded.  I need to be me and I’m going to do whatever it takes to do that.  If that means that I get screwed over once in a while, then that unfortunately something that I have to deal with.  People are never who they appear to be, but I have to trust what I know about people and myself and trust that those things will lead me in the right direction.

I wish there was a checklist that I could do to the best of my ability and then have the career that I want.  I feel like I’m always looking for new things to do, new places to go, and new ways to meet people to break into this industry.  I take a look at the end of each year to see what I’ve accomplished and its clear that I’m making progress.  I just wish it would go a pinch faster. I can only hope that what I’m working for is worth it.  I can’t imagine doing anything else and still being happy.  I feel like I’ve always known what I wanted to do and never had to make the decision to do it.  I don’t remember deciding what to go to college for or picking a career.  It just was. And now is.  I’m so blessed to be able to do what I love and am working my ass off to make sure that this blessing doesn’t go to waste.